Lonely as a Clud ;)

this is it.  last night of vacay at home.  feels weird and unreal, but i couldnt have spent the last time here in a better way.  after an amazing christmas in las vegas and at my aunts house snowed in with good people and great food, i came back and caught up with some of my best friends.  i’ve missed them so much, and i’d forgotten how much until i saw them again— that’s what I hate about being away.  my mind is so preoccupied with the busy busy busy at the present that i forget to feel what i’m missing and take a moment.

so i’ve spent the last week with good food, good company, and exhaustion, but love.  sleepovers at my sisters, midnight chocolate chip pancakes and paranormal activity 2 screenings with a great old friend i’m so glad to have caught up with again, trying out vietnamese and indian food with my best friend in the world who has the same weird tastes as me, and a day with my dad and sister spent eating sushi and drinking blooming flower tea.  

for once, i’m actually feeling so good and comfortable at home that the thought of heading back to school is getting to me more than usual.  but i think i just need to take it a day at a time, remember to relax, and remember that i’m going back to a great apartment, fun in another city, and friends that make me laugh so much that i cry.  i’m split into two, and i want to linger in both, aching for the lost one.  but i guess thats all a part of growing up.  so for now, my bags are packed, i’ve got a few goodbye trips to make, and then its nothing but me and the open road back to school, where i’ll reunite with some buds and see a guy who (for some insane reason)  really and truly cares about me.

maybe 2011 is gonna be a good year after all.