Lonely as a Clud ;)

Whirlwind of traveling and finally coming close to a real resting period.  Went from finals, to flights, to vegas and back, then snowed in at my aunt and uncle’s cozy house in the woods, then back to work late nights in columbia.  Overall though, while I’m still exhausted, I’m pretty happy—- I’ve only got two nights left of bitter cold and work, then finally have a week to just resttttt.. :)  

And things have been changing so drastically, I don’t know how to feel— I think I’m pretty happy about these potential changes, but I blink and the next moment my mind has decided it wants to run from them.  How can I force myself to just stay still for a moment?  

I’m not used to staying still— I’m always going, always on my own, always doing what I need to do on my own schedule— I’ve never really had to factor another person into my plans before, and now a boy has come along who has waited months to be factored in.  So as I sit and think, I’m hoping I don’t overanalyze any situation and end up not acting out of fear.  I promised myself a long time ago that I’d never let being scared stop me from anything— but this time, it’s different— it’s not just fear.  I don’t know if I’m willing to give up my independence quite yet.  Who knows how this will all pan out.  Right now I just need to remember to breathe and focus on what needs to be done— it’ll all work out.  Somehow.